Words I Can’t Play

wordI play Words With Friends (on FB) pretty much every day. It is one of those things that relaxes me, calms me down if I’m agitated, and it helps me focus and think. I don’t care if I win or lose: it’s just that something that I enjoy, and I need to do things that I like. There have been days/times where I just can’t face doing much of anything, and when you are in those types of moods you really do need to do something. Thankfully, those types of moods are passing.

In playing a few games this morning, I made an observation: I will not play the word death or any variation of the word.  I know I’ve done that before, but this time it happened in two different game boards, one right after the other. I made other words, skirting the letter D like the plague. It’s solely an observation, yet it makes me realize that I still have a ways to go in healing, in bereavement.

There is no time limit, nor is there any level I should be at. I just find that I can be stopped by writing a word out in a game, and it causes me to wonder why. As I’m typing this, I can think of one thing: as I wrote above, playing Words W/Friends is something I enjoy. Obviously, I have no joy in the word death, as it relates to my mother & father, my friend Charles, and all too recently the bombings in Boston and Israel. Am I restraining myself to mix in those words to something that gives me pleasure? Probably, that is one answer. It’s all a work in progress.

Anyways…because I needed to divert myself, I looked at a FB group I belong to, and a title I read felt apropos for today: I read the blog To Gyre and Gambol by Thom Brown entitled Say Yes To Life. I encourage you to read it, as Thom re-posted a very poignant speech that was made after 9/11. It is a good fit for the senselessness of what is going on in the world.

I hope you say yes to life, not just for those you know and love, but for the rest of the world.

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About StuHN

I am a creative individual with many areas of passion: Professional Storyteller; NYS Certified Drama Specialist/Educator; Professional Development Coordinator & Facilitator; Workshop Leader; sometime Puppeteer; Playwright; Director; Performer; Teaching Artist; and sometimes more.

Posted on April 17, 2013, in counseling, Despair, Grief, Healing, Inspiration, Meditations, Prayers, Support, Therapy, Transformation and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 8 Comments.

  1. Oh, I play scrabble every chance I get- and there are no off-limit words (as long as they are in the dictionary approved for the game in question…)

    • We play scrabble as well. As I said, the word is not “off-limits”, just ones I am reluctant/hesitant to use. It will take its course. Thanks Roy

  2. Love this game too. I have seen words or at least call them letter combinations that I have never, ever seen before while playing. If my opponent uses them I try to remember them. And I think I can relate to your squeamishness about “death” but don’t restrict myself from anything. Happy playing!

  3. Wonderful blog. Know what you mean about avoidance. I have trouble walking through cemeteries.

  4. i suppose a lot of people have “jinx” words or things that they avoid doing/saying because it makes them uncomfortable in some way. Interesting observation.

  5. Just read your post (late, I know)
    Enjoy playing with you!

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