Do You see me?

peopleOpen up my heart, O Lord
Open up my heart
Let me see the worth in myself, O Lord
Let me see my worth
Allow me to heal my aches, O Lord
Allow me to heal
Do You see the good in me, O Lord?
Do You see me?
My troubles continue to plague me, O Lord
My troubles still remain
I  desire to see some relief, O Lord
I need to find some relief
Let me feel the good around me, O Lord
Let me feel the good
Do You see the good in me, O Lord?
Do You see me?
I’m not alone in suffering loss,
Nor in financial pain
I’m not alone in seeking answers
Nor reaching out for help
I’m not alone
I’m not alone
Just looking for some ways
To move me along…
Be with me on my journey, O Lord
Be with me on my way
Let me find my song, O Lord
Let me sing again
Allow me to share my love, O Lord
Allow me to share…
Do You see the good in me, O Lord?
Do You see me?

A friend said to me: “I wish you could see yourself as others see you.”

She was talking about the good in me, the talent, the caring parts. I’ve heard this from so many in these past months, if not years… it doesn’t fall on deaf ears, but there is a wall I’ve constructed around me that often prevents the feelings from taking hold. I know it, intellectually, alongside my negative qualities (which I do my best to work on, not always succeeding); it’s the emotional, spiritual, moral component that doesn’t elude me, but it doesn’t always give me the satisfaction that I feel I should find, in what I have around me, what I hold inside of me, and what I have to offer.

I know, I know, before someone else states it loud: Tear Down The Wall!

It’s what I’m working on.

What walls do you have to tear down?



About StuHN

I am a creative individual with many areas of passion: Professional Storyteller; NYS Certified Drama Specialist/Educator; Professional Development Coordinator & Facilitator; Workshop Leader; sometime Puppeteer; Playwright; Director; Performer; Teaching Artist; and sometimes more.

Posted on January 22, 2013, in Caring, counseling, Despair, Family, Friends, Healing, Inspiration, Loneliness, Love, Prayers, Psalms, Spiritual, Support, Therapy, Transformation and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 12 Comments.

  1. Lovely lyrics – you could easily convince me they came from Godspell or JCS. Walls, of course, can keep us in as well as keeping others out. I rather like mine. 🙂

  2. Self examination is tough. We expect perfection of ourselves- and when we don’t find it, we seek even more flaws than actually exist.

    • Roy, being self-introspective is something I’ve done for a long time. I’m not finding flaws: I know what they are, and I’m trying NOT to have them at the forefront, but to work on them as I can, be aware of them, and not let them have a major hold on me. I don’t expect myself to be perfect: as I said, I don’t believe anyone can be “perfect”. Better…yes. Perfect? never.

  3. I also love the lyrics…Really heartfelt and deep. I like the line ” I’m not alone in suffering loss”. I think we sometimes forget that there are others facing the same kind of problems that we are. You will always find peace when you reach out to the Lord for help.

    • I can’t ever forget that others suffer; we all shouldn’t. This was brought up to me by one of the professionals I reached out to: not everyone seems to be capable of stepping away from themselves to include others. If we all did, I feel the world would be a lot better. Thanks Janette.

  4. Tearing down walls can be terribly scary Stu. I think the desicion to do so is the hardest. Once you start you realize how much you’ve been missing. We all have strengths and things we could work on but sometimes it’s best to simply realize you’re not perfect and work on those things that you are good at and find strength in. We don’t have to always focus on what is wrong with us. Stuart…you have a lot that is wonderful and right too, why not shift to work on making those things even better?
    Those lyrics are beautiful and very moving.

    • Bonnie, I do plan to make what I am stronger. I know it means also confronting what I don’t care about myself and not disregarding them. So, shifting to make all that is wonderful and right is part of it, I agree. I’m glad you found the lyrics moving. They came out like that, with little to no editing. Wish I had music to it: that will come, given time. Thank you.

  5. Since my miscarriage in 2010, I know I’ve built a wall between my self and God. Somehow I know my heart has hardened. Oddly, especially recently, events in my life seemed to have been forcing me to go back to prayer and once again, I am seeing the power in them. I know it really isn’t me moving closer to God again. It’s more of God not giving up on me. I know it’s the same with you.

    • I don’t think I knew about your miscarriage. I am sorry, Joy. I’ve known a few others who have had that happen. My condolences. I’m finding prayer…never had it before. I hope you are right, and all this testing was for a reason. Thanks.

  6. The two biggest obstacles I have are the wall of fear and the wall of mistrust, or maybe they are bricks on the same wall. I’m working on it. Knowing I’m not alone (having God and friends) definitely helps.

    • I’m not sure of answers at this point, but I do know that having friends support me and this beginning of a spiritual path has helped. I hope you find your way too Adriene.

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