First: I miss the Rabbi. I know I’ve only really just begun a journey in the spiritual path, but with barely seeing her in December and not at all in January…I’m feeling, in some ways, that I’m missing a component. On the other hand, when I use the tools she has given me in the way of prayers and meditations, I do feel a connection that goes beyond myself. I’m curious where things will be once February begins and we can resume our talks.

to-do-list1Doing Things:

I have to remind myself that I am doing things to climb out of how I’ve been feeling and getting some solid grounding under me. Sometimes, I get overwhelmed by the amount of things that need to happen, things I have to get past. Yes, everyone tells me the same: “a little bit at a time!” My patience level, which has always been low in certain areas, is definitely getting tested here. So, the list:

  • Set up the first D.T.S.S. gathering (donate, toss, sell, save): friends & family coming over to help me go through closets, cabinets, etc. I’m sure I’ll need at least two more of these days over the next few months.
  • Saying the prayers daily; meditation stuff almost daily
  • Job Search: every day, I look for jobs online; Resumes go out about every other day
  • Taking as many PT jobs as I can, as they come up
  • Not spending on incidentals
  • Selling some things on Amazon (no luck with ebay…yet): this is also getting rid of some of MY clutter
  • Reaching out to friends & loved ones often
  • Reaching out to job, financial and legal counselors
  • Writing this blog, just about daily
  • Hand writing a journal when I don’t have computer access.
  • Reading again.
  • Not using my bedroom as the only place to be in the apartment (that is still a hard one)
  • Playing Words With Friends (it actually does calm me down, usually)
  • Starting to write some fiction again
  • Hired to be a Theater Arts Consultant: not what I was expecting; this is a “let’s see where this will take me” type of thing

OK…it’s a good list. A good start.



About StuHN

I am a creative individual with many areas of passion: Professional Storyteller; NYS Certified Drama Specialist/Educator; Professional Development Coordinator & Facilitator; Workshop Leader; sometime Puppeteer; Playwright; Director; Performer; Teaching Artist; and sometimes more.

Posted on January 20, 2013, in Caring, counseling, Despair, Family, Friends, Grief, Healing, Inspiration, Loneliness, Love, Meditations, Mindfulness, Prayers, Spiritual, Support, Therapy, Transformation and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 8 Comments.

  1. I have been following your writing — uhm forever because I love it and you are so talented but I just looked at the LONG list of blog entries you have on our journey to . . . let’s just call it your journey and it is such an impressive list — your dedication to this process is so inspiring! Thank you for sharing all of this with us.

    • Molly, you know I’m with you during YOUR difficult time right now as well. Yes, it’s your journey too. I hope anything I’ve written has been of any help. Let’s talk this week.

      and…you are most welcome. Thank you.

  2. What’s important, here, Stuart, is that you keep busy, keep yourself active, which from your list you seem capable of doing. Glad to see you are continuing to blog. I can say from first hand experience that writing can be extremely cathartic. As Ray Bradbury (a favorite author of mine) said about writing a first draft:
    “Writing is like throwing up on a page.”

    Please excuse the visual but this can also relate to any type of writing that is done. You are after all releasing all of your emotions; whether you realize it or not all writers put something of themselves in what we write. By releasing our emotions in this benign way it actually helps us heal and may help others as well.

    Keep doing what you’re doing.
    Keep placing one foot in the front of the other.
    Life is a marathon and all that.


  3. It’s a good list, and hopefully the consulting job leads to another door or two opening up in the right direction.

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