A Tool for Transformation

A TransformationAs I’ve mentioned numerous times, I found a spiritual leader at a time I found myself completely off balance, probably at one of the very lowest of low points in my life. There have been two equally as low points before, but this one…this one I sought other help than I have in the past. I’m still not sure where I am in respects to God, but I’m more open.

My Rabbi lent me a book to read during January, a time I won’t be able to communicate with her on a one-to-one basis. I mentioned this book, briefly, the other day: Healing from Despair, by Rabbi Elie Kaplan Spitz. He recounts his own problems, throws in references to the Torah, and provides a series of tools for: Perspective; Transformation; Gratitude; Forgiving; Healing; and Becoming a Blessing.

From his Tools for Transformation (pg.52):

Writing Psalms:

Allow yourself to write from your heart to God expressing your yearnings, fears, and hopes. In doing so, you may find clarity, catharsis, and connection to God and community, as those in the past who have found comfort and care in addressing a greater presence.

So…here is  a Psalm I wrote:

“Open my eyes, God; let me feel the good others see in me. Let the warmth of their words sink in, grab hold, and grow.
Let something positive finally happen, O Lord, so that I can move away from financial darkness, and do something worthwhile for others, giving my day to day work meaning to not only myself. You have given me a lot of talents and skills; Please, God, let even one door open, taking me on a path so I can use them, thus removing some of the stress, anxiety, and despair I carry on and around me. I am a strain, at this point of time, not only on myself but on my loved ones. I hope You can grant them some relief from all that I am going through.
Please, God, let me stop beating myself up, dredging up past hurts, slights, or damage that I did to myself through my actions, or inaction, and allow me to put them into perspective, learning from them instead of letting them bring me down. Let me learn from all this, so that I may be stronger, more loving, more at ease, at peace, and find joy and happiness again in life. O God, please hear this.
Please, too, remove any turmoil from the souls of my parents. They both suffered in life, were both unhappy enough; may You grant them to be finally at peace with themselves and each other.

What would your Psalm say?


About StuHN

I am a creative individual with many areas of passion: Professional Storyteller; NYS Certified Drama Specialist/Educator; Professional Development Coordinator & Facilitator; Workshop Leader; sometime Puppeteer; Playwright; Director; Performer; Teaching Artist; and sometimes more.

Posted on January 4, 2013, in Caring, Despair, Family, Friends, Healing, Inspiration, Love, Mindfulness, Prayers, Psalms, Spiritual, Support, Therapy, Transformation and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. You’ve read mine! Now, the trick is to modify it so that even if the door is closed- you have a light available to find the handle and open it yourself.

  2. I think it’s lovely that you included your parents in your psalm – and that, once again, you’re able to think of others as well as yourself. May the transformation be for them as well as yourself. (((Hug)))

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