Positive Steps

positivesteps“Be what you are. This is the first step to becoming better than you are.”
~ Julius Charles hare

I have been told by my professional support system, as well as loved ones, that I am taking many positive steps towards digging myself out of the depression, anxiety, and “crisis state” that I had found myself in. In yesterday’s blog, I mentioned that I’m struggling with accepting into me, fully believing, in myself.

Today, finding myself with a LOT of time on my hands, I tried to continue writing more positive things, even though my day started with darker thoughts (I’m pleased I was able to subdue them quickly). This became the following list, of things that has been mentioned to me, and that I know that I am doing. I just need to get to the next step: feeling good that I’m doing them!

Positive Steps I Am Taking:

  1. Talk to/connect with Lisa on a daily basis
  2. Continue to connect with my support group of friends (Sam, Kim, Rich, Ray, Jay, Molly, Laura, Norma, Randy…so many more)
  3. Reconnecting with my son and daughter in deeper ways
  4. Reconnected with old friends who slipped by over the years
  5. Finding new online friends who are as supportive and loving as those who know me personally
  6. Not always make the conversation about me
  7. Started seeing a therapist
  8. Scheduled to see a shrink
  9. Found a spiritual guide, a Rabbi
  10. Start explorations of a spiritual nature
  11. Saying prayers daily, sometimes up to three times
  12. Looking daily for jobs
  13. Applying almost daily for said jobs
  14. Found excellent resume help; new refocused resume approved and out
  15. Taking as many Sub Teaching jobs as I can get my hands on
  16. Watching what I am spending money on
  17. Trying to eat balanced food intake daily
  18. Writing this online journal daily
  19. Writing a more “private” journal (almost every day)
  20. Opened home to Chanukah gathering; laughter and great company
  21. Saw Chanukah in a different light and got to share it with my SO & family every night
  22. Cleaning, packing, and planning what to do with Mom’s stuff (slowly)
  23. Started online “Mindful Meditations”
  24. Listening more to other people’s accomplishments and pains
  25. Two very successful storytelling performances
  26. A few excellent teaching moments, even as just a sub
  27. Beginning to enjoy reading again (a little: I used to read up to three books a week; now barely one)
  28. Doing what I can to reduce costs; some hard choices
  29. Trying to take things in, compliments and things I am thankful for
  30. Trying to appreciate and care about myself

I am trying. Thank you for being part of this whole thing, whoever is reading this.


About StuHN

I am a creative individual with many areas of passion: Professional Storyteller; NYS Certified Drama Specialist/Educator; Professional Development Coordinator & Facilitator; Workshop Leader; sometime Puppeteer; Playwright; Director; Performer; Teaching Artist; and sometimes more.

Posted on December 19, 2012, in Caring, Counsling, Family, Friends, Healing, Inspiration, Love, Meditations, Mindfulness, Prayers, Spiritual, Support, Therapy and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 12 Comments.

  1. Stuart, I’ve said before how powerful your journey is. Your honesty and courage are amazing. I hope to learn from you.

  2. Lisa, again I am sorry for your loss. Anytime you want to commiserate together, let me know. Thanks for the kind words.

  3. Making the list was a MAJOR positive step. It means you want to know what you are doing, not blaming anything or anyone, and detailing what will and does work.

  4. What a beautiful list Stuart. Seriously some things we should all be doing really. Sounds like your list could be titled “How to Make a Meaningful Life”.
    Try to just be Stuart, you can’t rush healing. Be gentle with yourself about your journey. Of course, I wish you joy beyond measure to help that along.

  5. mazal tov, great steps!

  6. I agree with Bonnie, much of this list would make a great blueprint for everyday mindful living – sometimes we forget that living a positive lifestyle doesn’t just “happen”, it’s something that we have to nurture and work at. And I do admire the fact that you ARE working hard at this instead of just giving up and surrendering to feelings of hopelessness. 🙂

  7. You are certainly doing the right things. Best of luck!

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