Loved Ones, Family and Friends

“Dear God, be with my family and friends. Bring peace to their troubled spirits. Enable them to know that their love gives  me strength. Help me to express my gratitude and appreciation to them for all they have done and are continuing to do. Let them feel free to bring me their own joys and sorrows that I may continue to participate in their lives even as they share mine.
May this also be a time of inner searching, that I may appreciate more fully the good and beautiful in life and labor to bring these to the lives of others. Grant me health and healing that I may carry out Your will in peace. Then will my life reflect Your presence and my love, Your love.” ~from Gates of Healing, A Message of Comfort and Hope
 

It is easy to get lost in yourself when times are really rough. I’ve dipped into self pity, been overcome with fear and uncertainty, bouts of anxiety and depression, and am alone for the first time in a very long time.

Yet, I’m not truly alone. I have some wonderful people in my life who care deeply for and about me. I just haven’t held up my end enough in caring about myself, nor fully reciprocating the attention they need/deserve.

As I try to move forward, I still stumble into despair, depression, anxiety, fear and more. It’s the knowledge that there are so many out there rooting for me that truly does help.

To those of you, know that I appreciate and love you, even when I don’t or can’t say those exact words out loud. You’re with me and I know that. I wish we were all closer in proximity, but that is not the case and I am trying my best to deal with it.

Thank you for being in my life.

As to God, I’m still trying to deal with the messages. Baby steps.

 
 
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About StuHN

I am a creative individual with many areas of passion: Professional Storyteller; NYS Certified Drama Specialist/Educator; Professional Development Coordinator & Facilitator; Workshop Leader; sometime Puppeteer; Playwright; Director; Performer; Teaching Artist; and sometimes more.

Posted on November 27, 2012, in Caring, Counsling, Family, Fear, Friends, Grief, Healing, Inspiration, Loneliness, Love, Mindfulness, Prayers, Spiritual, Support and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 17 Comments.

  1. Baby steps are perfectly fine.

  2. You are an amazing man who has been through a very difficult journey — know there are so many who love you and want happiness and peace for you — take the time you need to heal — Molly

  3. Hang in there, Stu. Keep doing what you are doing. -Melissa

  4. Thank you! Learning to hear God is a journey, one that is so worth it and never actually ends. One thing I believe with all my heart – when we search for Him, He runs to us. One of my favorite scriptures says “Be still and know that I am God.” Be at peace in your search – you will truly find what you seek. Much love, Barbara

  5. Hang tough, buddy. As you say: baby steps. Is this web site part of your recovery? “sharing the light” is important. I wrote the poem that starts this article when I realized that:
    http://healthmad.com/mental-health/fighting-clinical-depression/ )Please note that I am NOT a poet, but once in a while extreme emotion produces a half-decent piece)

  6. A lot of us are taking those baby steps, so I guess that means none of us are alone in this. Keep steady, keep the faith. It’s always worth a shot.

  7. Yes, you are appreciated and loved by many people. Not the same as having them there with you physically, but hopefully a comfort nonetheless. I think writing is a wonderful way to sort things out, organize thoughts…and you’ve produced some beautiful work which may in turn inspire others. As to God – well, even the foremost theologians will tell you that everyone, at some point, doubts, struggles, and questions. It’s certainly nothing to fear or be ashamed of! (Have you read any CS Lewis, aside from the Narnia books? He became an atheist at 15, though he later described his young self as “very angry with God for not existing”. He later converted to Christianity. While I’m not advocating that you convert, his struggles with faith might be of interest to you.)

    • No, I’ve never gone beyond Narnia with CS Lewis. Hopefully you’ll suggest something for me to look at.

      As to being cared about and loved…I do know it, and feel it. It is, as you know, just so hard to keep it when I’m physically alone so much. But…I do try to hold onto what you are saying. {{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}

  8. Some of us have to find our paths forged via unfathomed depths….That journey is helped when we have souls around to hear us…
    You have those souls.

  9. Take you time, and take baby steps. When times get rough, I like this sentence from Churchill:
    ‘If you are going through hell, keep going!’

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