Someone said to me, over the weekend, after hearing a bit of my situation, the old adage that “when one door closes, another one opens.” These are easy words to say, and I used to always believe that there were always options…another way to say the same thing. I’m trying to re-open myself to that line of thought, but when you are anxious and feelign down and out, when you are having trouble coping even with the simplest of things, that line of thought is hard to get into.
I am trying not to make this a pity party, but an expression of how I am feeling. I still haven’t come to really move on past one thing simply because I’m feeling so overwhelmed with so very much.
Try to forget the past mistakes
Try not to beat myself up
Try to find joy in daily life, for myself and for & about others
Try to look positively ahead, not see a blank, dark wall
Try to find purpose again
Try to find the comfort of the love and caring others have for me
Try to find the comfort, love and caring for myself…and that’s the hard one.
It’s now almost 6pm, and I have not heard from the job that assured me last week that I will hear from them today (Monday), one way or the other. I will have to put this out of my mind for the night and hope for the best for tomorrow.
Posted on November 19, 2012, in Caring, Counsling, Fear, Friends, Grief, Healing, Inspiration, Love, Meditations, Mindfulness, Prayers, Spiritual, Support, Therapy, Uncategorized and tagged anger, anxiety, coping, focus, jobless, mental health, patience, searching for work. Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.